Stark Raving Christian

May 25

Placing another offer on a house this week.

I’m so tiiiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeedddddddddddd. I actually have sleep deprivation symptoms and sickness.

I’ve had a couple of bad anxiety days in a row but I’m a bit better today.

All I want to do is sleep.

May 24

it’d be cool if there were like Sesame Street style shows for teenagers and Young Adults that teach you things like what to do at the post office and how not to be an asshole at parties

(via weepycreep)

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totusmel:

Steampunk peacock feather finds on the Wunderkammer

Lara

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May 23

ladyugh:

dumb

Hey look, it’s my awesome bff.

because drugs.

Katee, don’t kill your mother. Imagine killing her. There will be a prize for the most creative way in the form of me making a diorama of it. I’m actually for real. I expect many text messages documenting ways.

Gluten free choc mint brownies I made today :-)

shirtoid:

Let’s Catch Fireflies by Italiux and CoDdesigns is $10 today only (5/22) at Shirt Punch

Hello again 3 am.

As in I am awake for the day.

Meh.

May 22

Recovery Stage: ANGRY

SARAI SMASH

No, I haven’t gone Hulk yet (and we all know I’m more likely to ‘River Tam’), but I tell you what these days I am freaking close.

I feel like I’m at that really awkward stage of recovery where I look like I’m doing really well, and I sound like I’m doing really well, when I’m actually only doing moderately well.

So here’s what is happening with the people I love:

You’re obviously fine and capable so I’m not going to give you much latitude at all to have nervous breakdowns, not shower, and not be up to cleaning the bathroom.
You’re clearly still incredibly ill and I need to protect you from things like catching the bus, being alone all day, and all the emotional things going on.

And this can swing about on a half hourly basis depending on the loved one, my reactions to things, and the situation.

It’s driving me mental.

I think the worst thing is… I can’t ask them to be consistent right now because I’m not consistent right now. They aren’t mind readers and they’re doing their best. I’m a lot better, but I still have some really shitty times. I’m angry because they aren’t consistent. I’m angry because I’m not consistent. I’m angry, angry, angry, and you know what’s great about that? Anger is an emotion. I’m feeling emotions and I’m comfortable with feeling them. I’m even feeling emotions we perceive as negative and I’m okay with that. This is huge for me. Thank goodness for mindfulness. It’s not a strategy, it’s a way of life.