Hello again 3 am.

As in I am awake for the day.

Meh.

SARAI SMASH

No, I haven’t gone Hulk yet (and we all know I’m more likely to ‘River Tam’), but I tell you what these days I am freaking close.

I feel like I’m at that really awkward stage of recovery where I look like I’m doing really well, and I sound like I’m doing really well, when I’m actually only doing moderately well. 

So here’s what is happening with the people I love:

• You’re obviously fine and capable so I’m not going to give you much latitude at all to have nervous breakdowns, not shower, and not be up to cleaning the bathroom.
• You’re clearly still incredibly ill and I need to protect you from things like catching the bus, being alone all day, and all the emotional things going on.

And this can swing about on a half hourly basis depending on the loved one, my reactions to things, and the situation. 

It’s driving me mental.

I think the worst thing is… I can’t ask them to be consistent right now because I’m not consistent right now. They aren’t mind readers and they’re doing their best. I’m a lot better, but I still have some really shitty times. I’m angry because they aren’t consistent. I’m angry because I’m not consistent. I’m angry, angry, angry, and you know what’s great about that? Anger is an emotion. I’m feeling emotions and I’m comfortable with feeling them. I’m even feeling emotions we perceive as negative and I’m okay with that. This is huge for me. Thank goodness for mindfulness. It’s not a strategy, it’s a way of life.

• Dexter is a secretly gay funeral director who just became a deacon at his very traditional Anglican church and is sleeping with a hunky black police officer.
• Jilly Kitzinger is the daughter and she’s really… full of gumption.
• Rachel Griffiths is a slightly disturbed shiatsu masseuse.
• And Sandra Oh was just a porn starlet in a blonde wig 

thechristopherglen:

It’s so hard to be single sometimes when all you want to do is cuddle and share a pizza.

Share a pizza?

Bitch please.

There ain’t no one on tumblr who wants to share a pizza.

(via weepycreep)